2017 was a rough social year for me. I was having a hard time connecting with new people I met and making new friends. I attended a lot of social gatherings over the weekends with the mindset of talking and interacting with people in more fun and meaningful ways, but I always fell flat of what I set out to accomplish.
Social skills are hard to come by because if you’re bad at socializing, you’ll be conditioned to not like socializing. Not enjoying socializing in turn makes you worse at socializing, and you have a vicious cycle. I felt trapped in this vicious cycle since my self-conscious attitude towards my social skills would pop out in a middle of a conversation while I socially implode mid sentence.